Miss df

Back again..

Can I resist blogging?

The answer is, as it seems - no.

Last night, as I was in a taxi, on my way home, to my new home, my new home in town, I sat there in the taxi, quietly, watching the Friday evening scenario; rainy city streets were slightly drunk people walked on shaky legs on their way to somewhere else, and I realized that this evening was one of those evenings I would have written about in my blog, if it still existed.

I am afraid of the future. Right now, it feels as if things are like I want them to be. But I know, this is not going to last.

I am on a very short way to..somewhere or nowhere - it is almost entirely up to me.
In my mind, I am already 10 months ahead, when things will be, in a way, over, or starting, depending on how I choose to see it...
Over, if I look at it pessimistically.
Starting, if I manage to turn the future into the direction I want.

So, there is this thing called achieving goals and dreams.
It all sounds interesting and fun and extremely frightening, because do I really have any, or am I just trying to achieve the goals that others expect from me?

Anyway, in that moment, in the taxi, just as the taxi drove by the over-rated and rather creepy castle, I decided to re-open my blog, for how long, and for what reason, I don't know, but the fact is, I miss my old blogging routine tremendously. And it has helped me before getting my confused thoughts and dreams in order.

I hope it works this time too.

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